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[24 Jul 2005|09:42pm] |
well I know that I hardly update ... my life isnt that interesting I guess :D I made a new journal for Icons.. I hope I will update this more often.. SO I guess I will write in the other journal from now on and post my work there .. and thsi journal .. hmm I dont know if I will use it any longer .. so If you guys want to stay in contact with me .. please add ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) lorelai82 to your buddies :)
thanks
Suz
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[22 Oct 2004|08:16pm] |
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hey guys,
its finally weekend .. i´m so glad.. the week wasnt that ahrd tough .. but i´m glad its over.
my back is hurting and my head seems like falling of my shoulders any moment.. lol this means i have a major headache as well..
i got home at 4 pm .. then i watched GG and after that i tried to sleep.. i was tired as hell but i failed terribly (sp) i think my mind is occupied with to many things which cant let me sleep.. neither at day nor at neight
i havent slept at all in 1,5 weeks ..well yeah i slept.. but just a few hours .. like 2 or 3.. last night i got 4 and i was glad about that.
i´m trying to collect my thoughts at the moment.. well i´m not very good at it.
i need vacations.. off from work.. my family and friends .. just time for me .... sometimes i think about leaving everything behind .. adn tramping to italy or to somewhere else.. just for a few weeks .. i would miss home and my friends to much to do this permanently.
god i´m tired ...
still have this pipi longstocking theme in my head (played in Gilmore girls on wednesday) god the scene was hilarious.. lorelai and Rory singing the theme of pipi longstocking
"hey pipi longstocking holaha holaha holahopsassa" (well or something like that :D )
its friday night .. i´m at home .. my parents are at a birthday party.. i wanted to go out as well but ... well my friend wanted to go to a club and since i´m not feeling very well.. i told her that i have to leave early .. well seh wasnt very pleased and told me to stay home right away ..so i am at home watching TV and thinking...
well nothing really happened this week..
<--- boring person :D
hope to tell more next time
love suz
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| New Layout |
[12 Oct 2004|11:42am] |
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lol .. yes thats what happens when I am bored
so .. a new Layout..again
what do you think? Love it or hate it?
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| miau |
[04 Oct 2004|08:47pm] |
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hey
hmpf i really cant keep my promise to write more than just one time a month into my journal.. it sucks
i had my birthday yesterday. i throw a little party on saturday with a few friends, but it was really cool. I hate it when some people just think that they are just there to eat and drink without cost.. i mean it was my birthday and they didnt really care
but anyway.. a few friends did care and thats the more important thing
my best friend visited over the weekend and had been there for my birthday. That was cool. we had a great time and i loved her for beeing there. I missed my boyfriend. he got me a dvd for my birthday "a walk to remember" i so love this movie and he knew that.. then he sent me one of his t-shirts.. i loved to wear those when i was at his place.. i just wanted to smell his scent..
carmen (my best friend) got me a dream catcher.. its beautiful and will find its own place above my bed
my mother gave me money .. as well as my aunt .. i wanna buy a new PC so ...
god i´m so tired.. i havent had enough sleep the past 3 days :D lol
The new season of GG is starting on Friday. I´m so excited .. well i have seen it already in OT but i wanna know how they translated it this time
ok this was it for now.. i think i´ll head to bed before my head is falling on the keyboard
love, Suz
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[19 Sep 2004|07:59pm] |
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good evening to all,
after two long weeks i slapped myself for the lack of updates. I really should update more often. But sometimes i´m just busy with work and sometimes i´m just not in the mood of writing into my LJ.
i´m tired and considering that i have to work tomorrow.. my mood is .. well... not good.
my boyfriend is visiting next weekend, i´m so looking forward to it. We havent seen each ohter for about 1,5 months.. thats a long time. Did i mention that long distance relationships suck big time?
the week after the next its my birthday. I invited my best friend over and gladly she has time. I´m looking forward to spend some time with her, talking about everything and nothing.
tomorrow i have to go see the doc again. For the 3rd time in one week. Its just annoying. No one can tell me what i have. They are doing a complete check now (i talked about it like 4 months ago) i know i shouldve gone to the doc ealier.. but i hate docotrs (hehe can you believe that ER is one of my fav. show? ironic, isnt it?).
yesterday i got my nales made. Its weird to write with tips on my nales. But i love my new nales and they are looking tres chique (hope this is written correctly). i was at my friens home for 4 hours til the nales were finished. A long time for me.. without internet :D
awww.. i have nto much to tell at the moment..
i hope to update a bit sooner the next time :)
Suz
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[03 Sep 2004|09:12pm] |
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well the same layout .. but without spelling mistakes :D and a bit different colours and brushes.. the pic is still the same .. i love alyssa and especially this pic.. so i think i´ll stick with it for a little while *laughing*
ok what else is new .. do i have soemthing to tell...?
well work was awful this week.. my bosses are just mean a$$holes..
talking about mean ... i watched "mean girls" well in Germany its called "girls club" dont ask me how they came up with this title :D .. anyway the movie was good .. loved the scene at the end with those 3 girls and the bus.. exact my kind of humour
what else .. uh yeah i almost forgot .. i´m thinking about to quit dancing .. i love to dance .. but in this group dancing is just awful i hate it .. we start at 8 pm .. well until everyone is arrived its 8:30 pm ..then they have to talk about what happened to people in the city .. we normaly start at 8:45 pm .. did i mention that smoking break is at 9 pm? well i think you get my point ... and the dances we do at the moment are so plain and simple.. i dont like them at all.. i love the music (we do mamma mia) but the choreographie (?)just sucks!..
ok .. furtheron i was shopping today .. jsut a shirt and a pair of earings.. not that much ..
still waiting for my Alyssa and Lauren autograph... argh ..
well finally weekend .. i hope my parents wont wake me up tomorrow.. i need to sleep .. i really need .. i havent slept for about two weeks now ..well just a couple of hours each night.. 2 maybe 3.. insomnia sucks..
ok i think .. thats all for now
Suz
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[01 Sep 2004|11:07pm] |
..hey just made a new layout.. its just timely.. working on something new .. but i thought it was time for a new pic onthe entrance page.. tell me what you think about it.. liked the old one better? think that i´m not talented in making arts :D lol .. just tell me your opinion about it
thanks .. suz
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| Weekend discussion |
[30 Aug 2004|11:50am] |
hey,
i promised to keep my LJ updated .. i try.. but i dont have the time to write one entry in a day :D lol .. one in a week is enough, right?
ok so .. my weekend was good.. well too short but good.. almost..
friday i spent the whole eveing talking to a friend of mine and playing the Gilmore Girls Roleplay.. it was fun.. i loved it.
Saturday i was at a big party one of my friends threw.. he invited 250 people ..well in the end there were about ... lets say 150 people but still enough. my friend told me after a while to take advatage of the music cause no one could handle the new winamp player on his PC except him and he didnt want to do that .. (well it was his own party .. he was supposed to celebrate his birthday with the others :D) so i said yes and because of this we spent the whole night hearing my music.. so i had nothing to complain about this lol.. but the music was good ..everyone told me the music was great and i´m a godess :D hehe ..well i already knew this but still *laughing*
i drove home by 3 am.. which wasnt really late but .. i had to sleep cause i told a friend of mine to meet her at 11 am at the gym... everyone was mad at me for leaving so "early" and without having some drinks with ´em but i had to do this...
except for that i wasnt really feeling well that day.. i was puking my goods out the whole day and was feeling very dizzy.. normally i wouldnt have gone to the party.. but because jojo is a pretty good friend of mine i decited to at least show up for awhile .. i didnt plan to stay til 3 am but time went by fast...
yesterday wasnt really my day either.. i wasnt feeling totally bad but the sickness was still there.. guess i ate something wrong (today i´m feeling better just a lil dizzy)
all togehter it was a good weekend.. except for last night .. but that story .. i´m telling later..
see you
Suz
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[21 Aug 2004|02:23pm] |
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snagged from Leslie (hope that is ok)
First Gig: BSB (yeah i was on a concert.. and it was fun)
Last: Christina Aguilera
Next: Anastacia
Best: Christina
Worst: none
Like to see: hmm Pink
have a pet? a cat ..had a rabbit.. but she died
prefer city or suburb? definitely suburb.
have a cell phone? yeah
drink coffee? yeah .. a lot.
love your parents? sometimes lol.
have a job? yes .. bilingual secretary
like your job? not really
sleep with music on? nope.
believe in fate? yes i do
believe in love at first sight? yes
prefer girls or boys? guys. altough most girls are really interesting :D
believe in god? well no... sometimes tough..
have tattoos, if so how many? none
have piercings, if so how many? 3 (you wanna know where?) :D
get popcorn at movies? sometimes.. not very often tough.
read the newspaper every day? no.. but instyle :D
eat three meals a day? hmm i dont eat breakfast.. so .. 2 meals and a snak at night lol
a vegetarian? no
like pickles? hmm yes
really hate britney? hate is the wrong word
wear a watch? yes
multilingual? yes.. german .. english.. italian
watch tv? a lot
want kids? sure .. maybe 2
spend too much time on the internet? lol... do i need to anser this?
have a car? yes
racist? not at all
do you wear sunglasses? if the sun is shining ..yes
religious? catholic .. on the paper
attend religious places of worship? nope
self concious? sometimes
look like anyone famous? lol a friend from ff told me i look like alyssa milano on a special pic.. it was a nice compliment .. bu it dont really think i look like her
sing in the shower? oh yeah (ask my boyfriend)
eat fast food? unfortunately yes ..too much
happy? sometimes
misc...
magazine or books? magazine
coke or pepsi? coke
last book you read? hmmm charmed or gilmore girls.. i´m, reading both at the moment .. just for fun.. the last "real" book was .. hmm something from anne rice
white, milk, or dark choclate? i like milk chocolate.
last thing you bought? a book and a DVD
butter or margarine? magarine
coffee or tea? coffee
cats or dogs? cats
pen or pencil? pens
been broken hearted? yeah
been skydiving? not yet
been to another country? yes
been in a car accident? a few
what do you do on halloween? hmm nothing match .. here in germany we dont celebrate it ..well at least not the way american do
last time you cried? last week i think
last time you brushed your teeth? this morning
last time you took a shower? last night
last song you loved? i love so much songs . its hard just to pick one
your favorite:
food? pizza, noodles
movies? chicago
season? spring,
music? pop / rock
non alcoholic drink? sprite, coke
color? pink, black
holiday? hmm dunno
city? hmmm dunno either
flower? roses ... yellow ones
shampoo? shmm schauma
salad dressing? yoghurt
animal? cats, rabbits.. all fluffy ones
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| long time no see / read |
[12 Aug 2004|07:30pm] |
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hiya guys
yeah i know my LJ isnt that much updated as it should be. i promise to change that.
A lot happened in the last weeks .. my sweety little rabbit (Lizzy) was put to sleep.. She had a broken back and a tumor on her stomach.. it was better to put her to sleep.. so we wont suffer any longer.
At the moment i´m visiting my Boyfriend.. Its nice to be here again and its feels like heaven to be treated like a princess.. well sometimes he treats me like that. For now he is cooking (i made breakfast .. well lunch .. it was about 3 pm when i made it and he is making dinner) we split the work up. But we do the Dishes togehter lol
tomorrow i´ll return at home .. i really looking forward to. I´ll miss my boyfriends but i miss home as well.. and my dad is alone at the moment because my mum is in spain with my aunt.. and my dad cant really cook lol.. he´s eating pizza or some junk food every day .. and thats not good.. and i miss my cat as well..
whoooo .. here is a storm going on right now .. i hate storms.. but i´ll get over with it :D
and i´m worried about a friend.. she is so sad at the moment and i do not really know what i can do to help her .. i feel helpless
anyway .. thats for now
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| thank you |
[03 Jul 2004|08:46pm] |
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hey
i wanna say thank you... to all of you for such nice comments. i promised a good friend never to give up life and i´ll try to keep that promise. I´m not really better ..
i changed my life completely the last day ..well my online life.. i wanna to start over new.. with all of it.. i changed my icq number ... i left most of the boards i was member of and i broke kontakt to some persons... i know this maybe is not fair but i need to do this for myself .. i´m really depressed and i cant live with a fight with one of my friends every evening.. i just cant .. i wanna be like i was earlier in my life ..i changed a lot in the last two months .. i´m a very funny person ..always making jokes and laughing and everything .. but the last tow months i was depressed.. hurt.. feeling lonely.. feeling lost... i want to have ME back.. and i´m trying hard to get me back
i dont wanna break contact to those people forever.. i just wann built myself up again.. beein just me for awhile.. i need to do that
i hope work is getting easier now that my collegue returns...
thank you all for listening to me. i promise the keep up with you r journal as soons as i can
hmm ok what else .. i´m ill.. having a cold.. and fever.. stayed in bed most of the day.. feeling like crap.. ok this was it
love Suzie
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| another sad song... |
[10 Jun 2004|11:23pm] |
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heya guys
i dont even know if someone is still reading this.. but i need to talk .. or at least to write down my thoughts. Tonight i finally managed to talk about my past with a friend.. my best friend actually .. i was in the middle of my story when she sait something in between .. i couldnt go any further with my story and i was hurt... i mean it took me soooo damn long just to open up a little and then .. she dont even let me talk until i´m finished. she said nothing bad .. she just interupted me... i know that she dont wanted to interupt and i know that she wanted to listen.. but i just couldnt go on in telling her about my past.. i dont know if i was a little harsh in telling her that i wanted to be alone at that moment ... but i just wanted her to leave.. well not to leave since we were talking online.. but i wanted her gone.. now i´m sorry because i have noone to talk to at the moment..sure my bf is online but i dont want to bother him with all those stuff. A. .. you are my best friend i hope you know that .. but ... god why do you had to interupt me.. why? please tell me.. i wanted to tell you all of it... everything ..you were the first person i wanted to talk about it ... anyway.. i dont know if i´ll ever open up again .. no its not your fault A. ... maybe i´m just not ready for sharing those things with other people
anyway.. otherwise i´m doign ok.. really busy with work.. its driving me crazy at the moment.. i have more do to then usually and i dont know how to manage all this extra work.. but i´m looking forward to next week...
bye
Sorry A.. but i had to write this down..
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hey,
again i have been to busy to write into my LJ or to lazy or whatever.. maybe i just didnt want to.
Its thursday now.. fathers day.. i was at the sea with a few friends and their parents.. but without mine.. they dont care to spend time with me and went to a privat party today at their friends house.. anyway it was pretty great.. we had a nice barbeque and enough to drink. So the day was good acutally.
i´m feeling good as well.. watching the Gilmore Girls Finale clip over and over again
Spoiler
they did it.. they actually did it.. they kissed.. twice.. OMG it was sooooooooo great
end
you must think i´m crazy.. freaking out because of a TV show, but as long as it makes me happy ... and i need some things which made me happy ... so...
hmm what else.. uh yeah .. my collegue at work talked to me about her vacations.. she will take 3! weeks off from work in June.. this means i´m alone with 4 Bosses.. i mean.. i am i supposed to do work for 4 bosses.. i bet this 3 weeks will be the worst of my life and after them you could directy send me to the psychatry. ..well we´ll see.
ok i think i will have some dinner now.. i´m starving..
bye
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| October |
[05 May 2004|10:26pm] |
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OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty [Authors comment: not really]. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often [Authors Comment: yeah thats true..its becasue of my italian blood]. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think [Authors comment: not ture!]. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced [Authors comment: normally not.. but maybe sometimes]. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
i have to say that almost all things are true..
What does your birth month say about you?
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ok its been awhile since i wrote into my LJ the last time.. a lot of things happened since then .. i had a huge fight with two of the most important person in my life.. they hurt me.. i was hurt.. much... but like its said above.. i recover easily.. but not so easy.. i still suffer... and i still asking myself why they did this to me.. i mean .. we talk to each other again .. but its not the same anymore.. i miss them .. i miss talking to them like we did before this..... but i dont know what to do ... i wish i could turn back time...
about my health .. i´m doing better.. my stomach paid is gone .. my cold is still bothering me... the complete check is ordered for this month.. i dont know when i´ll go tough..
about work: work is really stressing me out.. every mornign i wake up with a tight knot in my stomach.. and wvery day when i make my way to work i feel miserable...my bosses are so hard at the moment..
i know.. normally i should be happy to have a job.. and i am ..really .. but the job is killing me... everytime i go home i´m in a bad mood and making people i love feeling miserable like me.. and i really dont wanna do that.. i wanna be able to make a civil conversation with people. On weekends my mood is good.. until sunday night.....
ok i think i cried enough about my "oh so bad life".. my life isnt that bad .. but at the moment i feel like it
otherwise i´m doing ok... the dacne season started again .. so i have a lot to do.. i think thats good :)
ok thats it..
bye
Suzie
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Stolen from ally
Sleep with or without clothes on? in winter with in summer without..
Prefer black or blue pens? Black
Dress up on Halloween? sometimes..
Like to travel? oh yeah i do
Like someone? yes
Do they know? i think so
Sleep on your side? yeah
Think you're attractive? *laughing* no i dont think so
Want to marry? yes if the right one asks me
Who? we´ll see :D
Alaska or Hawaii? hawaii
Are you a good student? i neevr was a good student
Are you currently in a relationship? yes
Are you involved in sports? yes.. fitness center and dancing
Birthplace: FB
Christmas or Halloween? HALLOWEEN
Color or black-and-white photo? colored
Do long distance relationships work? yes they do
Do you believe in astrology? sometimes
Do you believe in God? i was.. until my best friend died in a car crash and some bad things happened to me..
Do you believe in love at first sight? hmmm not really
Do you consider yourself the life of the party? hehe no
Do you drink? sure thing
Do you have a car? yes
Do you have a job? yeah
Do you make fun of people? yes sometimes i do
Fave thing to do? shopping..chatting watchin GG
Fave breakfast food? i dont eat breakfast
Fave Candy? oreos
Fave Vacation spot? Italy
Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex: Hands.. i really love hands
Go to the movies or rent? movies
Have you ever moved? hmm not yet
How's the weather right now? hmm uhm.. dark? (its in the middle of the night)
Hug or kiss? both
Last person you talked to on the phone? Ally
Last person you text messaged? hmm Jule, Ally, Michele and Nico
Last time you showered? this morning.. well i think it was almost noon
Loud or soft music? loud
McDonalds or Burger King? MC
More romantic; baths or showers? baths. oh yeah.. especially when someone is joining you :innocent:
Night or day? night
Number of Pillows? 2
Piano or guitar? Piano
Single or taken? taken
Snow or water? snow
What are you doing tomorrow? lying in bed.. watching GG .. doing the RPG
What do you drink? everything.. coffeeeeee
What makes you vomit? ? hmm in the past weeks.. almost everything
What's on your computer screen? you really wanna know?? Lauren Graham :))
What's right next to you? tv remote control.. cd´s.. my cell phone
What's your bedtime? ... i dont know
What's your best physical feature? no idea
What's your name backwards? acissej
Who do you talk to the most online? hmm let me think.. at the moment.. Ally and Michele.. and jule i think
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no news at the tests yet.. and i´m not really feeling better .. but i´m hanign in there...
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| long weekend |
[29 Apr 2004|06:43pm] |
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well i have a long weekend.. 4 days to be exact.. but not voluntarily .. i´m sick.. i have been sick for the past week but yesterday i could not even work.. so i got home from work early and this mornign i went to see the doc.. first i have a breathing way infection.. not that bad.. but i´ve been having cramps lately and started bleeding.. my doc told me its possible ut of stress... but i draw me blood.. and i have to wait what the blood test is saying .. they also ordered a complede check.. because i´m often ill lately.. and i have a headache almost everyday.. so they ordered the health check.. i´m sure its nothing serious.. but i´m a lil bit afraid..
oh and my doc told me to stop drink coffee and put me on diet (i´m not fat.. its just.. because maybe the problems with my stomach are just some infection)
i´m very curious now.. i mean .. not about the breathing way infection .. but about the other tests and checks or whatever.. ok i think we just have to wait and see
hey at least i can watch all the gilmore girls episode i downloaded :D.. thats not so bad :)
ok i think i´ll stop rambling and eat my bisquits and have a tee
bye guys
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| Weekend |
[24 Apr 2004|04:28pm] |
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its weekend now .. but i really cant enjoy it..
my mum invited 6 friends and they are staying overnight.. this means i have to give her my room for 2 of her friends.. i have to sleep at one of my friends house.. and she did this withhout asking me...
otherwiese i´m ok.. well major headache.. but at least no work
work was awful yesterday.. i told each boss (i have 2 .. or 4 fridays) that i have to go at 3:30 pm .. they all said it was ok.. at 3:00 pm my first boss came and told me that i have to write a efw letters... (which means for him at least 10) and i asked him if i cant do it on monday and he told me "no.. now" and i told him "but i have to go in 30 minutes" he looked at me and said "well it seems like you have to stay longer then" i was so angry at him... and then my other boss came adn told me that i have to write a few of invoices ... (it takes a long time just to write one of them)
well insted of 3:30 pm i left the office at almost 5:00 pm ..without break or somethink like that... i hate my work ... i hate my bossed and everything
i still have my spring depression and i seems like i will keep it until i die ... ok at least until the summer arrives
and i have the problem that i could not keep food down.. at least nothing more than just a piece of bread .. hey but i will loose some weight..thats good isnt it? :D but its getting better.... i hope
now i´m sitting in front of my pc.. i´m bored.. no one is around to talk to.. i feel lonely.. i hope ally will return soon (miss you hun)... (hope she hasnt bought too much clothes :D)
ok this was it for now
bye
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| Spring Depression |
[18 Apr 2004|04:24pm] |
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hey
Spring depression is bugging me... i dotn even know why.. i mean .. outside the weather is as beautiful as it could be.. almost 22 degrees.. the sun is shinig non stop.. the birds are singing.. no clouds above.. everything is beautiful .. teh plants are growing.. i should be in a very good mood.. but i´m not...
a few friends of mine tried to cheer me up.. but nothing worked.. yesterday night i was on a party and i forgot for a few hours that i´m depressed as hell..well i think that the bottle of vodka helped..
i just wanna feel better.. just enjoy life..
i guess i have to wait.. letting the days pass and see what comes.. just living day by day... and hope that it will get better...
Suzie
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